Friday, September 23, 2016

Lament of the Soulless

The greatest of friendships exists In the baring of selves The mutual exposing - voluntary! of each’s naked being
It is where friends have seen the worst of the other plumbed the depths of the soul known all the retardedness the other can stoop to the indulgences weaknesses dreams fears and despite the innumerable host of imperfections that mar that naked visage extend the fiery embrace of love to the other from one core to the other
When becoming sworn brethren was a thing what could be more real than the blood oath The mingling of the very liquid life that courses through the veins of the twain
Can deep friendship be, where two leave standing the walls, masks and fancy Venetian blinds that hold the world at bay where the projected image of the Perfect-er Self displayed to strangers is retained for a ‘close friend’ to see?
but the knitting together of souls is formed of heartstrings the strands, the fibres of the innermost selves where the fabric of outer veils are rent asunder
And between naked self and naked self the burning bonds formed surpass words spoken, interests shared, ugliness witnessed where dark secrets can no longer hold hostage the intertwining of beings Where covalency - the strongest of chemical bonds is but a facade, a mere interaction of outermost shells Where the deepest friendships are a fusion-but-not-fusion the enjoining of two cores one but not one two but not two A new ‘self’ born of two old.
Thus bemoans one who, desperate to prove himself worthy fearful of being judged keeps shields up, moat filled and walls manned letting none past his gates and wonders why none dare knock

self awareness

Self contemplation: gazing inward
into my shattered soul, my fractured heart
My self I see, but only
as through a broken glass, darkly
Betwixt rivulets of glittering cracks
and in scattered splinters on the cold ground